53: Awkward Familiarity.

So today was pretty much... Awkward I guess?

My CCA batchmates figured that they should come back and have a reunion dinner, which was alright for me, if not for the fact that I had to face her. It's quite uncomfortable to be around and seeing someone who you've haven't spoken to for months, especially since both parties have somehow decided to cut off all forms of contact. But I guess nothing too awkward happened because the rest of my CCA mates managed to intervene and kept us apart for majority of the time so I never really had much time to notice her and stuff, and when we did actually interact it felt pretty alright (although that's because I deliberately chose to indirectly talk/ignore her when she tried to speak directly, and yes I think it might have been really childish of me to do so but I'm just not ready to talk to her I guess?) . But yes, thank you guys for the effort, really appreciated it. (:

It was still awkward though cause nothing much was said over dinner, and I guess it's mostly cause they ran out of things to talk about? They had to wait for 1-2 hours for me to end CCA so I guess there's only so much they can do hahaha. The outing ended abruptly and awkwardly too because no one knew what to do afterwards and so everyone just decided to split and go home LOL. Oh well...

I guess although this wasn't the best way to meet up and stuff, it certainly is a great step towards being comfortable with them again. They've even planned to have a barbeque outing on 14th March already so I guess the next time we do this again it'll be way better than today?

On another note, I have to travel all the way to Telok Blangah (familiar place, again...) for my NS medical checkup tomorrow, and I heard it's going to take bloody long + there is a blood test which I'm so not looking forward to due to my fear of sharp objects.... Sigh.

And that's all for now!