"The boy and the girl both loved travelling. Whether it was
to other countries, or whether it was to different places in Singapore, they
both loved moving around with each other.
Whenever they travelled long distances, the girl would love
to sit beside him and rest on him. They’d share earphones and listen to the
songs of her playlist on her phone, the boy naturally giving in to her. Sure,
he was scrawny, totally not buff, and all she felt were his shoulder bones, but
she didn’t mind. His scent, now more distinct as she was so close to him,
totally engulfed her. She’d always compliment him for his smell, even if he
didn’t put on any cologne or perfume, as long as he wasn’t sweating of course.
“You smell nice today,” she said.
“Really? But I really didn’t put anything on! Are you sure I
don’t stink, I sweat a lot…”
“No, I like it. If only I could get to do this with you,
everyday…” She smiled, as she drifted off to sleep.
He smiled. Their height difference wasn’t big enough for the
girl to naturally lean her head against his shoulders, but the clever her would
always curl up so she could ‘shorten’ her body height. That way, not only could
she lean properly, but she’d get to snuggle up too. Her head may not be the
best pillow to him, and sometimes she would over-exert her weight on him,
causing him to be sore, but he didn’t mind it one bit either. In fact, she
smelled great too. He wanted to return her compliments from earlier, but she
was already drifting into the world of dreams and he didn’t want to disturb
her. Instead, he watched her fall asleep. She was beautiful. And she was his.
She felt like family. Maybe they’ll
become one too someday. As he continued to observe her, he too drifted off
to the rocking movement of the vehicle, and the two spent the rest of their
journey with their heads together, with smiles on their faces.
Both the boy and the girl had their flaws, but when they did
things together, everything seemed perfect. She
was happy, and so was he. They accepted each other for who they are, and
they enjoyed each other’s company.
That’s what love truly means, right?"
How naive. Things aren't always flowers and roses in the real world.
I realise now that I've forgotten that I don't live in a world where things always work out, that most beliefs don't stay true for long and most "constants" don't stay that way for long. The world is not going to stop for me and it is down to myself to make sure I don't fall behind. I'm eighteen, yet I still act like an innocent kid who believes everything will always be alright; and as long as everyone learns to love, the world will be a far better place without people judging and hating. Wrong move.
In the real world, qualifications is all that matters. What's the use of being able to give physical and emotional affection to someone, if you don't even have the ability to be able to physically support their tangible needs in the first place? Comforting hugs don't give you houses to support the ones you love, nor will words and promises give them a good life. Action must be followed up as proof. "Forever" always comes with terms and conditions, and once you don't meet them it doesn't matter anymore.
This is how life is. Cruel, yes, but it's still the cold hard truth. No more dwelling about in my fantasies and time to stop waiting for the good things to happen. Things have changed. She grew up, I didn't, and now it's time to give myself a huge slap to my face.
Wake up, Jun An. Playtime's over.
Quote of the Day:
"So little time,
Try to understand that I'm trying to make a move just to stay in the game.
I try to stay awake and remember my name,
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same."
How naive. Things aren't always flowers and roses in the real world.
I realise now that I've forgotten that I don't live in a world where things always work out, that most beliefs don't stay true for long and most "constants" don't stay that way for long. The world is not going to stop for me and it is down to myself to make sure I don't fall behind. I'm eighteen, yet I still act like an innocent kid who believes everything will always be alright; and as long as everyone learns to love, the world will be a far better place without people judging and hating. Wrong move.
In the real world, qualifications is all that matters. What's the use of being able to give physical and emotional affection to someone, if you don't even have the ability to be able to physically support their tangible needs in the first place? Comforting hugs don't give you houses to support the ones you love, nor will words and promises give them a good life. Action must be followed up as proof. "Forever" always comes with terms and conditions, and once you don't meet them it doesn't matter anymore.
This is how life is. Cruel, yes, but it's still the cold hard truth. No more dwelling about in my fantasies and time to stop waiting for the good things to happen. Things have changed. She grew up, I didn't, and now it's time to give myself a huge slap to my face.
Wake up, Jun An. Playtime's over.
Quote of the Day:
"So little time,
Try to understand that I'm trying to make a move just to stay in the game.
I try to stay awake and remember my name,
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same."
Keane - Everybody's Changing
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